Rude

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Rude by Magic

Saturday morning jumped out of bed and put on my best suit
Got in my car and raced like a jet, all the way to you
Knocked on your door with heart in my hand
To ask you a question
‘Cause I know that you’re an old-fashioned man, yeah, yeah

Can I have your daughter for the rest of my life? say yes, say yes
‘Cause I need to know
You say I’ll never get your blessing ’til the day I die
Tough luck, my friend, but the answer is no!

Why you gotta be so rude?
Don’t you know I’m human too?
why you gotta be so rude?
I’m gonna marry her anyway
marry that girl
marry her anyway
marry that girl
yeah, no matter what you say
marry that girl
and we’ll be a family

Why you gotta be so rude

I hate to do this, you leave no choice
I can’t live without her
Love me or hate me we will be both
Standing at that altar
or we will run away
to another galaxy you know
You know she’s in love with me
She will go anywhere I go

Can I have your daughter for the rest of my life? say yes, say yes
‘Cause I need to know
You say I’ll never get your blessing ’til the day I die
Tough luck, my friend, ’cause the answer’s still no!

Why you gotta be so rude?
Don’t you know I’m human too?
why you gotta be so rude?
I’m gonna marry her anyway
marry that girl
marry her anyway
marry that girl
yeah, no matter what you say
marry that girl
and we’ll be a family

Why you gotta be so rude?

Can I have your daughter for the rest of my life? say yes, say yes
‘Cause I need to know
You say I’ll never get your blessing ’til the day I die
Tough luck, my friend, but no still means no!

Why you gotta be so rude?
Don’t you know I’m human too?
why you gotta be so rude?
I’m gonna marry her anyway
marry that girl
marry her anyway
marry that girl
yeah, no matter what you say
marry that girl
and we’ll be a family

Why you gotta be so rude?
Why you gotta be so rude?
Why you gotta be so rude?

This is like the most gentleman song ever! Hahaha.. You might not think so when you’re parent tho.

Enjoy!

Sarawak, The Land Of The Hornbills (Part 1)

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I’ve never set my foot in Borneo island and this would be my first. Honestly, I’ve been planning to go to Sabah first but little did I know, Kuching would be the first place I’d visit in Borneo. I was so excited when my sister told us that we were going to Sarawak, to visit my niece, Kak Long and at the same time, spent some of our school holidays there. Initially, this was a big family vacation, where everybody in our family would be joining.

Well yeah, everybody including ayah.

:-(

Who knows that he couldn’t make it.. :-‘(

It was so sad to see his name on the passenger list, but Allah knows better. He is the best planner so who are we to question what He has planned for all of us, right? It’s heartbreaking of course, but we all know ayah’s in a better place right now (in sha Allah, amin), way way better that none of us could ever take him to on this planet. Miss you so much ayah! Al-Fatihah…

So, since we lost ayah, mom also couldn’t go on this vacation due to her edah. We couldn’t leave her alone so one of my sisters decided to accompany her at home while we were in Sarawak. It’s okay mom. We’ll take you to other places once you completed your edah okay? 🙂

We traveled by Mas Airlines. We departed from KLIA at 10.05 a.m. and arrived in Kuching International Airport at 11.40 p.m. We rented three cars which all the men in this trip were the drivers of each (Abg Man, Abg Bob and hubby).

There were three empt seats that were meant for ayah, mak and wawa. :-(

There were three empty seats that were meant for ayah, mak and wawa. 😦

Abdul Malik's clan.. From left, Kakak Eda, Mila, Abg Bob and moi. Those are my nephew and niece, Darling and Danish.

Abdul Malik’s clan.. From left, Kakak Eda, Mila, Abg Bob and moi. Those are my nephew and niece, Darling and Danish.

Us! :-)

Us! 🙂

So our first stop was UNIMAS, since we were going to pick up Kak Long. The weather was rainy, cloudy and sometimes windy. It was all wet but I personally liked it, since the heat and humidity were not really my things. Muahaha bajet org putih letewww…

The, we went straight to our apartment which was Jinhold Service Apartment. Honestly, I didn’t really like it at first because it was not a hotel, but once I stepped into the apartment, I was amazed by its spacious room and comfortable furniture. After all, it was very very clean, which was super important to me. It was just for the two of us, it was more than enough.

The whole studio apartment. Loved it!

The whole studio apartment. Loved it!

After freshen up and resting for a while, we headed to the nearest Pizza Hut, since we haven’t had anything since morning, own except for the inflight food. We ordered five large pizza, together with salad. They were all gone so quick. Lapar gila. Haha

My partner in crime, Kak Long! Always good to see you girl!

My partner in crime, Kak Long! Always good to see you girl!

Then, we planned to go to Kuching Waterfront to have a look at the place, you know. Just sight-seeing.

Nice background right... So Sarawak. Haha

Nice background right… So Sarawak. Haha

Sarawak River..

Sarawak River..

Some musical show..

Some musical show..

Kek Lapis that we bought at the bazaar. Look at the pattern, it's like tikar but only colourful. So sedap too. The flavour was 'pure butter'.

Kek Lapis that we bought at the bazaar. Look at the pattern, it’s like tikar but only colourful. So sedap too. The flavour was ‘pure butter’.

Sarawak River Cruise! We didn't plan to cruise actually, but when we were offered, we thought, why not? RM11 per person.

Sarawak River Cruise! We didn’t plan to cruise actually, but when we were offered, we thought, why not? RM11 per person.

The view along the river...

The view along the river…

Us, on the boat.

Us, on the boat.

The night view from the water..

The night view from the water..

It was already late at that time so an hour of cruising brought us to night light. We asked the locals if there was anywhere we could go at night, they said, ‘Takdela.. Mintak maafla.. Sini malam2 takda ape2.. Pegi mall je ke atau balik je rehat.” Haha thank you pakcik. It ‘helped’. So we drove around the city after cruising, then back to our apartment. Had shower and then we went out again for dinner. Haha. Hubby didn’t go out this time because he was too tired, so did my lil sister and my two nieces, KakLong and KakNgah. We went to Kubah Ria Plaza and had Mee Kolok Soup.

Mi Kolok Soup!

Mi Kolok Soup! The taste was quite nice and I like it. 🙂

On the second day here, we decided to go to Sarawak Cultural Village in Santubong, which was about an hour drive from the Kuching city. I think this was the best part of our vacation this time, but I’ll write that in Sarawak, The Land Of The Hornbills (Part 2) because I wanna go get some breakfast right now.

Haha bye.

Little This And That

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Last week, I already shopped 3 dresses from my favourite clothing line, The Poplook, but I still haven’t got a chance to try them on yet because right now I’m in Sabak Bernam and those are addressed to my house in Muar. Huaaa… Cant wait! But, to get rid of the guilt (of wasting money on dresses again), I decided to sell some of my dresses in my wardrobe, those with the tags are still attached. Yang baru ade, yang dah yg pakai sekali dua, then x pakai dah pun ade. I should do a clearance sale kan.. Usually I let go of my stuff in TPL Group on Facebook, they’re always sold out. That’s why I love buying TPL stuff, because they have high second value and whenever I don’t need them, I can always sell ’em. Here’s the best part. There’s always buyers! Hahaha cool right!

This is the group. It's done me a lot of favours so far. Hehe

This is the group. It’s done me a lot of favours so far. Hehe

Okay, by the way, these are the dresses that I bought, which I might sell in the future! Haha but if they’re soooo worth to keep, i’ll just keep them then.

Thelma Maxi Dress

Thelma Maxi Dress

Penny Chiffon Maxi Dress

Penny Chiffon Maxi Dress. This one is a lil bit cheaper since I bought it preloved from someone in TPL group.

Clementine Maxi Dress

Clementine Maxi Dress

Alamak, this one pulak suddenly appeared on my timeline.. Grrr!

Really TPL?? Nadine is my fav! Arghh! I should get a grip now!!

Really TPL?? Nadine is my fav! Arghh! I should get a grip now!!

Today is my second day at home, and when I say home, I mean Rumah Sabak Bernam. I’m only gonna be here until this Sunday, and then I’ll go back to Muar to monitor the whole progress of our house renovation. Can’t wait to see my new kitchen. I hope they won’t mess things up while we’re not around.

Day 1

Day 1

Day 4. That's our kitchen. :-)

Day 4. That’s our kitchen. 🙂

Speaking about kitchen, well, I decided to cook today since I RARELY cooked in our own house (yes, in caps!). Hubby requested Nasi Lemak with sambal sotong and ayam bakar rempah. So, here they are!

Ayam Bakar Berempah

Ayam Bakar Berempah. Owh look at the juice!

Nasi Lemak Kukus

Nasi Lemak Kukus

The whole thing for lunch. Ye, org makan nasik lemak bias mase breakfast, tapi kitorg makan time lunch pula. Haha ada haku kesaaahhh?

The whole thing for lunch. Ye, org makan nasik lemak biase mase breakfast, tapi kitorg makan time lunch pulak. Haha ada haku kesaaahhh? Yg penting hubby cakap ‘sedap’, and mak approved!

Macam bengong je puji masakan sendiri. Hahahaha. It’s actually quite an accomplishment for a newbie like me, you know. That’s why I’m bragging about my cooking right now. Haha

Today is 27th November 2013. It’s 2 months (2 months and 1 day) now since ayah passed away. The pain of losing him is still there (how can you lose it, you’ll never lose it), but we know he’s in a better place right now. I still get a glimpse of him sometimes in my sleep and his voice still lingers in my ears. Just now when I got back from buying groceries for mom, we passed by the cemetery where ayah was buried, the balai raya where ayah used to go for kampung meeting and the mosque. Every inch of this place reminds me of him. Lagi2 bila tgk parit2 kat sepanjang jalan. I used to help ayah printing those pictures of parit for kampung development files and documentations. Hehe.. Kdg2 ayah keluar rumah bwk camera, saje tanye, ‘Ayah nak gi mana?’ He said, ‘Nak tgkp gambar parit. Nak ikot ke?’ Hehehe.. Or, balik rumah tanye mak, ayah kat mana, mak said, ‘Alah, tgkp gambar parit la tu…’ Haha. Parit parit parit! Memories! Always love and miss you ayah!

My favourite old man in the world!

My favourite old man in the whole wide world!

Pen off now. See ya!

Kun Faya Kun

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When I was on phone with my mother just now, she told me something quite surprising. Something that is beyond logic of a human’s mind. But, remember what we’ve learnt in kelas agama? Bila Allah berkehendakkan sesuatu, maka terjadilah ia.

Kun faya kun. As what we call it.

Subhanallah… Ya Allah, can I have that chance too?

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Ayah, I miss you so much, and I always will. I’ll always pray for you and think of you. You’re the king of my heart and no one could ever take your place. I promise, one day if I already have children, I’ll let them know how special you are to us all. I’ll make sure they’ll love you too just like we do, even though they’ve never met you.

I love you so much ayah!

****

p/s- Anyone of you has watched this telemovie on Oasis channel, Kaabah Depan Rumah?

And.. Anyone of you has experienced something like the final scene of that telemovie?

Al-Fatihah Untuk Ayah

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Entry ni dah lama tulis, tapi tak siap2.. Setiap kali nk sambung tulis, menangis. Hari ni, I gather all my strength and determined to finish writing it today.

Ayah pergi pada 26 September 2013 yang lepas dan hari ni dah hari yang ke-25. Selasa ni, 22 Oktober sepatutnya birthday ayah yang ke 69 and dah planned camana nk celebrate.. Ya Allah, kami hanya merancang, Kau lah yang menentukan segala-galanya..

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That morning, when I was getting ready for Kursus Penandaan UPSR Bahasa Inggeris, suddenly hubby knocked on the bathroom door. When I opened it, he just stood there with teary eyes. It seemed like he wanted to say something, but he didn’t know how. I was very impatient and asked him, ‘Apesal?’. He opened his mouth and closed it again. ‘Apesal? Cakap la!’ He kept silent for a few seconds, and then he said, ‘Ayah dah takde, B..’

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The last time I saw ayah was during Raya. He was fine, healthy as usual. Sakit sikit2 tu biasa like, gaut, pening, demam. There was one time ayah was admitted to hospital due to high blood pressure, and that was it. Tak pernah sakit serious sampai berminggu or berbulan kat hospital. So, when I got the news that he was gone, could you imagine how I felt?

On the 4 hours and half-journey from Muar to Sabak Bernam, I couldn’t think of anything. Hubby looked at me and asked me to recite Yassin, then only I did that. I just couldn’t believe what was happening. I was very blank. Mak, Kak Eda and Abg Bob kept calling me and asked ‘Dah ada kat mana?’ Ayah masa tu dah dimandikan, dah disembahyangkan, tinggal nak kebumikan je. They were all waiting for me and I was sick worried to my stomach that God didn’t give me a chance to see him for the last time. I kept praying.

I arrived in Sabak Bernam around 11.30 a.m. Getting into the house, I saw everyone was already there. Relatives, cousins and some people I didn’t even know. I looked at my right and I saw my mother in a black jubah with red teary eyes, sitting in front of a body of my dearly father, who was already covered in white. I ran towards her and hugged my mother so tightly. Ya Allah… That painful feeling, is the feeling that I will always remember for my entire life. Only God knows how heartbroken I was at that moment.

I requested to see my father’s face for the last time. When I looked at his face, I could see that he was smiling. He didn’t even look like he was sleeping, he looked more serene and calmer than that. I couldn’t take my eyes off of his face knowing that I couldn’t see it again for the rest of my life. After about half an hour reciting Yasin and prayers for ayah, I got up and tried to find my mother. Another reason was, I couldn’t bear crying near my father every time my relatives, cousins, neighbours came to me and hugged me. I was emotionally sick and tired so I tried to sit somewhere hidden from everyone else. I saw my mother sitting with my sisters and nieces. I took a place beside her and started asking how did this all happen..

Mak cakap, ayah was just fine on that Wednesday morning. He got out, watered the flowers and stuff. My mother was at school canteen, as usual. Not long after that, ayah called my sister and asked her to get my mother home immediately. Ayah said, ‘Wa, tepon mak, Wa. Ayah sakit’. The moment she arrived home, she saw ayah was already on the carpet, sweating. Mak cakap ayah berpeluh sampai Tshirt yg ayah pakai lencun. Mak lap peluh ayah, tapi lambat sangat nk kering sbb ayah kept on sweating. Ayah bgtau mak yang ayah sakit perut mcm masuk angin. Both my brother and elder sister were in Klang/Shah Alam at that time, my younger sister still couldn’t drive well since she just got her car license. So mak called the ambulance. Ayah was conscious the whole time but he was very very weak. The doctor did the scan and xray, the blood pressure test and everything that needed to be tested, but they didn’t find anything. That was when I got a message from my sister telling me ayah was in the hospital. I called her and when she told me ayah sakit perut mcm masuk angin, I was quite relieved because I thought it was not serious.

Ayah was allowed to go home on that day itself. Since the doctors got nothing, they just assumed ayah got ‘ulser perut’, which we didn’t believe sebab sebelum ni ayah tak pernah sakit perut. That night, ayah was still weak and he walked with the help of walking cane. Kami adik beradik sedia maklum ayah tak suka ditolong sebab ayah taknak susahkan orang. Ayah suka buat semuanya sendiri. My brother and sisters wanted to help ayah getting to the bathroom sebab ayah nak ambik wudhu’, tapi ayah said that he could walk on his own. When he walked back to the hall after wudhu’, he suddenly collapsed in front of everyone. His lips cracked and he broke his tooth. There was blood on the floor. When everyone was panicking, ayah was suddenly conscious again. He even asked, ‘Kenapa?’ When he was told that he just collapsed a second ago, ayah just laughed and asked again, ‘Mcm mana pulak boleh jatuh?’ He sounded just fine, he even joked saying maybe my niece Darling who is 3 years old, pushed him while he was walking. This incident is the reason why everytime we ask Darling ‘Atuk sakit apa?’, she would answer, ‘Atuk sakit gigi..’ Sebab gigi ayah patah waktu jatuh tu.

Ayah then lied in the hall. He was just resting while attending to some visitors yang datang lawat ayah malam tu. Ayah berbual2 mcm biasa, gelak2 and takda apa2 yang pelik pun. After all the visitors went home, ayah slept on the sofa. Ya Allah, Allahu Akbar…. Who would have thought, that moment, ayah was actually closing his eyes for the last time. Ayah pergi meninggalkan kami semua somewhere in his sleep. A very peaceful way, if you ask me. My mother only realized this when she wanted to wake him up for Subuh prayer, on Thursday morning. Biasanya ayah bangun dulu dari mak, dlm pukul 5 lebih kurang. He would recite Al Quran, sembahyang sunat, zikir and etc while waiting for Subuh. Since my mother knew ayah was not well, she got up first and let him sleep until 6.40 a.m. Then, when she was trying to wake him up, once, twice, ayah still didn’t respond. At that time, my mother might realize that ayah was gone, but she didn’t wanna believe it because ayah was still so warm. She called our neighbours. They came, learnt what happened, shocked, and… you know, then they started to spread the sad news.

Everyone didn’t expect it because ayah seemed just fine the days before. It all started that Wednesday morning and ended the very next day. It was all so quick. Only God could know how heartbroken I was when I got the news, but I kept telling myself, sekurang-kurangnya ayah tak sakit lama. Ayah pergi pun dengan cara yang baik. Ramai yang cakap, ayah pergi dgn cara yang senang dan tak menyusahkan orang. Suddenly it just came to me, maybe that’s what ayah would always want. Maybe that’s what he always prayed for. Hidupnya tak menyusahkan orang, perginya pun tak menyusahkan org. Sebab seumur hidup mengenali ayah, ayah paling tak suka orang bersusah-susah untuk dia walaupun dari anak sendiri.

Ayah dimandikan oleh bilal masjid dan dipangku oleh ahli keluarga lelaki, Abg Bob and Abg Man, and beberapa orang yang lain, dikapankan dan disembahyangkan di rumah 2 kali sebab ramai, sebelum dibawa ke masjid pada waktu Zohor untuk disembahyangkan oleh penduduk kampung kali yang ke-3. Selepas itu, jenazah ayah dibawa ke Tanah Perkuburan Kampung Batu 37 Darat untuk dikebumikan. Alhamdulillah, berpeluang tatap muka ayah lagi sekali sebelum dimasukkan ke dalam liang lahad. Like I said, he was like smiling, he looked even more alive than the time he was sleeping. Semoga ini pengakhiran yang baik untuk ayah. Kemudian, talkin dibacakan. Masa talkin dibacakan, hati jadi sebak. ‘Wahai Abdul Malik, terputuslah sudah hubunganmu dengan duniawi, kecuali doa dari anak2 yang soleh..’

Ayah, bersemadilah ayah dengan tenang. Dah tiada lagi tanggungjawab yang perlu dipikul, dah tiada lagi amanah yang perlu ayah jaga. Tugas ayah didunia dah tamat. Ayah berehatlah. Semoga kubur ayah menjadi salah satu taman syurga Allah dan semoga segala kebaikan yang ayah lakukan di dunia akan menjadi pelindung ayah di sana. Ya Allah, Kau peliharalah ayah, rahmatilah ayah, dan himpunkanlah ayah dalam golongan hambaMu yang soleh dan beriman. Amin..

Life still goes on, even though sometimes it feels so hard without him around. Ayah dah selamat di sana in sha Allah, kita yang hidup ni masih belum selamat. Masih belum tahu bagaimana pengakhiran kita. Semoga apa yang kita doa setiap hari, untuk keluarga, saudara, rakan2 dan diri sendiri, akan dimakbulkan oleh Allah. Semoga Allah beri husnul khatimah kepada kita juga.

Dan… semoga dapat berjumpa lagi dengan ayah di sana, in sha Allah.

Al-Fatihah.

Haji Abdul Malik bin Alang 22 Oktober 1944 - 26 September 2013

Haji Abdul Malik bin Haji Alang
22 Oktober 1944 – 26 September 2013

Tak sangka ni Syawal terakhir dengan ayah.. :'-(

Tak sangka ni Syawal 2013 ni rupenye Syawal terakhir dengan ayah.. :’-(