Me Being Busy, Me Being Almost 30

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Owh, look.

Owh, look. This 423rd post is about my birthday, 4/23. Coolness!

Last week was the busiest week of my schooling schedule so far, I feel. I had to be here and there and finding it hard to catch my breath all week. On Sunday and Monday, I had to be at SK Simpang Jeram for Netball Tournament, which we only managed to go to quarter finals by the way. We lost to SK Parit Bakar Darat by only two goals. TWO! Bummer. On Tuesday, I was at school and emceeing the launch of Kem Membaca 1 Malaysia. On Wednesday, I went to PPD for choir practice. Choir practice. Yes, you read that right. 😛 Along with other 27 teachers from all Muar/Ledang, we will be singing a few songs in conjunction with Hari Guru Peringkat Daerah in Bukit Gambir on 24th May. Yes, this is a bit unusual of me, since I don’t sing that much. In fact, I don’t sing at all. Haha. I was offered the spot by my friend since there weren’t enough teachers volunteering for this. I only thought of the cert I would be getting so yeah, why not. New experience. 🙂 🙂 😀

Netball tournament at SK Simpang Jeram. This was against SK Seri Bukit Pasir.

Netball tournament at SK Simpang Jeram. This was against SK Seri Bukit Pasir.

Against the host. Won big. 14-3

Against the host. Won big. 14-3

Also, apart from being busy as a bee, on last Thursday, 23rd April 2015, I officially turned 29 years old. In the previous years, I used to ignore the age I was turning because I know I always looked younger than my age so who cares about the number (bitch slap me please), but this year…. Ahhhh! 29 years old!!! This is my last year of being in my twenties and somehow I feel so sad. Not to mention, so old!! Owwhhhh the big three O next year! Where did the time go??

Pre-celebrated my birthday with hubs after school.

Pre-celebrated my birthday with hubs after school.

I don’t know about you guys, but here’s my question. Have you ever felt like the time’s running out for you? Like, there are so many things you wanna do but you haven’t done them yet due to other priorities in your life and if you wait a second longer, time is up. Things like, traveling, climbing mountains, river-trekking, sky-diving, diving with sharks? Maybe. You know, crazy things like that. Sometimes, I do feel that time’s running out for me. I’m almost 30 and only managed to do 20% of those things. Maybe 10% of those things, I don’t know. I’m getting older and maybe I won’t have time and energy for any of that anymore. Sigh…

Okay, I know what some of you might think. Every time I reflect on my life, I know I always sound ungrateful. Haha. No, that’s not my intention. I’m blessed for a lot of things too. In my twenties, I secured a scholarship to study abroad, did and saw a lot of things there, got a degree, got a job, bought my own red baby car, got married to a man of my own choice, and the biggest of all, in my twenties, I managed to buy my own house. Alhamdulillah. Who knows what’s in store for me tomorrow? Maybe I would buy a second car, maybe I would start my Master, maybe I would even get pregnant? Hahaha. Who knows..

Anyway, life’s so short right? You have to make every single second count and not to waste any, especially, when you’re in your final year of twenties.

With that being said, let’s go back to my LET reports. The due date is on 29th April. Gotta do it fast or my boss will go nuts.

This is one dashing task I tell you.

This is one hell of an ‘adventurous’ task I tell you.

Owh, got extra class tomorrow too. Yeay!

Happy birthday to me.

Owh, I want this! Chocolate malt ice-cream cake!!

Owh, please make me one of these chocolate malt ice-cream cakes!!

Bakul Sampah

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So my previous post was a lil bit too emotional. Was not in a right mind since I was in a fight with hubs, so I went overboard with almost every aspect of my life. Job, family, etc. Hakikatnya, things aren’t that bad. I was being so ungrateful, wasn’t I?

I could consider myself as perfectionist in certain aspects, so when things in those particular aspects aren’t going well, even if it is just a minor glitch, I could go crazy and go hysteria about it. I can’t keep all this emotion inside me so I need to get them out of my system. Hubs is always the victim. He is the ‘bakul sampah’ who would just accept all my emotional nags and cries that I’ve been throwing at him. Every time he opens his mouth to reason with me, I would just shut him up with my even more emotional cries and irrelevant arguments. I dunno how he puts up with all of this crappy attitude of mine, but he handles it well every single time.

I can never lose this man. NEVER! He’s my sanity. Thanks love for being my bakul sampah. I love you.

Anyway, right now, I’m in the middle of writing my recent vacation in Seoul (Part 2) and it’s been saved as a draft right now. Haih, I’m starting to forget the details already, I better quick!

Till you see my posts again. Bye for now.

Sad Little Person

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What’s the use of having people around you but you seem like invisible to them?

What’s the use of being in the same place but you do your own things and don’t talk to each other?
You don’t even see each other.

What’s the use of discussing things, then saying sorry when you keep repeating the same mistakes?

What’s the use of being together when every act of yours will hurt the other?

What’s the use?

Sometimes, I feel like I’ve had enough of this life. I just wanna leave everything and everyone behind me, go somewhere alone and have a good reflect on what I have achieved so far. Which is not much. I don’t know if you have ever felt sad and disappointed with your life but right now, that’s what I feel. I feel useless. I feel shit. I feel like my life has been laid out in front of me and I should just live by it. Play it safe.

There are times when I consider of quitting what I’m doing and just see where it takes me, but I ain’t that bold, especially when I have so much on my plate right now, especially when I have people who hold me back from making that decision.
I’m only young once, and right now I’m already a year away to my thirties. Will I live like this until I’m old?

Being a grown up sucks. If I could hop into a time machine now, I would like to travel back to my childhood years. I don’t even wanna be a teenager, I wanna be a kid. I wanna be with my mak and my ayah.
Haih… Ayah… Tetiber rindu sangat kat ayah.
T__T

Life’s so complicated right now.

I feel like screaming my lungs out. I feel like crying my eyes out.

Sorry for his rubbish post. I’m just a sad little person right now, who needs to pour out these words, otherwise I’m going crazy.

Blerghh!

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So, I just got back from tonight’s tuition at school. You know, same old same old, year in year out. I wonder if this is the same thing I would be doing for the rest of my teaching years. Tuitions here and there, day or night, weekend or not. Blerghh!

Actually, I don’t really know what to ramble here. I got everything ready for tomorrow, outfits ironed, lesson plans done, books marked and me showered. All that’s left is just hitting the sack, but it’s not even 11 yet. So early and I’m not even sleepy.

Okay, maybe I should watch TV in the bedroom, while waiting for my brain to stop thinking and then getting sleepy.

Hmm… Bye!